Daydreamer, rescue me

2010-05-12T20:51:00.000-07:00

HI I AM NOT USING THIS BLOG ANYMORE.
I am currently using Tumblr instead of Blogspot.
http://iwillkisswithafist.tumblr.com/

FUCKYEAHTUMBLRISAMAZING
i want to marry the creator of Tumblr.

2010-05-07T08:03:00.000-07:00

Hi do you love my moustache?

2010-05-07T07:29:00.000-07:00

I am blogging on Tumblr more often. So yeah :)

http://iwillkisswithafist.tumblr.com/

2010-04-29T03:43:00.000-07:00

I am contented even though things aren't back to normal.

Because,I am surrounded by my awesome girls.
Thanks i love you all.

2010-04-24T06:38:00.000-07:00

I am way more active in tumblr. Might be deleting this blog and then make my tumblr as my official blog. But I don't have much followers. So we'll seeeeeeee ok.

And to..

My lovely casts,if you are reading this,I miss you guys including nisa pataki!

2010-04-23T05:19:00.000-07:00

2010-04-22T07:44:00.000-07:00

I SMELL COWARDSSSSSSS OOHHHHHHHHH
when i saw rubbish,i saw you.
Fucking loveeeeeee the burning hotels.
fuckyeah moustacheeeeeeee,i love moustache.
Moustache are better than hairless dick.
AND NAD,LETS HAVE TEH TARIK AT CANADIAN PIZZA.

omg this blogpost is crap.

2010-04-20T07:13:00.000-07:00

I AM PLANNING TO BE MUCH MORE ACTIVE IN TUMBLR.

MY TUMBLR: Http://tasteofyourtears.tumblr.com

2010-04-18T04:10:00.000-07:00

"As Usual I'm stuck in the middle"
I love today. Went shopping and finally bought my to die for jeans!! and a few tops..had pure caramel and blueberry cheesecake at CoffeeBean. And I'm having crab for dinner(my mum is cooking) and awww Its raining. Omg today is p-e-r-f-e-c-t.

2010-04-18T04:09:00.000-07:00

HI NAD!!! IF YOU'RE READING THIS I GOT MY JEANS ALREADYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY WHEEEEEEEEEEE
SEE YOU TOMORROW BITCH(L)

2010-04-18T03:58:00.000-07:00

"No one can control how I feel"
Yes no one can break me. NO ONE.
Your words won't bring me down.
I will prove to you guys that I'm better and I'm not what you think I am.
Just grow up and stop being so pervert.
Stop pointing out my mistakes. I have feelings ok? I'm a human and so are you.
Would you like it if I talk about your dignity?
You guys are not manly enough to say it in my face is it?
So much of saying sorry last time. You are so FUCKING manipulative.
I SERIOUSLY FEEL LIKE PUNCHING YOU LA FUCKING CB

another disappointment,sigh.

2010-04-16T23:09:00.000-07:00

Hi.

The weather today is a killer. Oh god.
I am meeting Kakla after religious class today!
I can't wait to use her Polaroid!
MYE is just around the corners and I am freaking out.
I have to get good grades so that My mum will buy a camera for me!
I guess Books and Notes will be my new best-friend then.

Wish me luck-x

2010-04-16T22:55:00.000-07:00

Persian teacup kittens are so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee and purrrrfect!!
Meow!

2010-04-16T09:33:00.000-07:00

So pissed and sad right now.
There is no point saying sorry when you always bring up the past.
I am very very very sad and hurt by your words.

2010-04-15T06:09:00.000-07:00

I HAVE BEEN SPENDING MY TIME WITH NADHIRAH AND SHE'S AWESOMEEEEEE!!

2010-04-13T08:21:00.000-07:00

"Let go. Why do you cling to pain? There is nothing you can do about the wrongs of yesterday. It is not yours to judge. Why hold on to the very thing which keeps you from hope and love?"
- Leo Buscaglia

2010-04-12T05:15:00.000-07:00

Hi.

I am Happy.

Bye-x

2010-04-10T08:38:00.000-07:00

2010-04-10T07:54:00.000-07:00

1)Today is a really joyful day.
2)Sarah and I bithced alot during Religious class! Haha If you're reading this Sarah,I love you!
3)Mom and Brother is working. Dad is working overseas. Maid is at my aunt's. So we're left alone at home.
4)Huda cameover after Religious class because No one is at home except for me and my sister. So she accompanied us.
5)Mcdelivery and watched The Lovely Bones again.
6)Send Huda to the bus stop.
7)I am still waiting for my mum to come home. Its almost midnight and she's not home.
I should call my mum now.

xx ally.

2010-04-09T07:38:00.001-07:00

Goodbye Andrew.
I am very happy for the both of you.

xoxo

2010-04-09T07:29:00.000-07:00

I am going to be carefreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee and happyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy like wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee okay i should seriously shut the f up already. I love God.

2010-04-09T07:03:00.000-07:00

I don't know whats wrong with me but I am feeling very very happy.
I have been smiling and smiling and then my tears would just randomly fall,tears of joy maybe? WTFFFF LOL. Ok seriously,my blog is like really boring already,fml :c

Sidetrack a little.
I miss Rachel,Amalina,Aqilah,The B.a.i.k crew,other cast(s),Daen and everyone else! I miss all the late night rehearsals,teasing my director,meeting up with amalina before rehearsals,gossiping will rachel,amalina and aqilah and lots lots more. Bah I just miss acting.period.

P/s; Nad! If you're reading this,here you go a postscript just for you. Hehehehe Thanks for today,Love you(L)

2010-04-09T06:11:00.000-07:00

I love hugs. Especially when someone hugs me from the back.
Hehehehe♥ ♥ ♥

2010-04-07T03:34:00.001-07:00

Hi Aikel,If you're reading this.
I am really really curious why you seem to ignore me at times.
Do you hate me?

2010-04-07T03:24:00.000-07:00

Its sad how people whom I call "Friends" has the heart to do such a thing to me. Aren't friends suppose to back up for each other? You guys are such a disappointment. I never knew you guys would do this to me. Never ever will I do this to all of you eventhough how bad you guys are to me. I repeat,NEVER EVER.

2010-04-05T03:15:00.001-07:00

I am getting sick of everyone getting all so mushy mushy.

2010-04-01T06:15:00.001-07:00

Classmates are fucked up.
Teachers are fucked up.
School is fucked up. PERIOD

I am so happy with the fact that there is no school tomorrow.
I am really stressed out right now,I want to go shopping alone.
I want to buy new jeans from Uniqlo. Jeggings from TOPSHOP and that particular dress from Dorothy Perkins and another blouse from Miss Selfridge.
Retail therapy is all I am thinking of right now.
Oh and my brother is off to his band-tour tonight :(
Will misssss you Abangggg Hafizzzzzzz!

Alright we're going to send him soon! Bye-x

2010-03-30T01:43:00.000-07:00

"oh boy,you're such a classy bitch"

Hi.

Today sucked.
I was late for like the fourth time and I was suppose to go to detention after school.
But, I went home straight after recess due to Gastric pain,Dad fetched me.
Oh and Thanks to Nadiah and Raudha for helping me with my bag and sending me to the General Office. Bah,I have to go to detention tomorrow and I also have to teach tomorrow. I am pretty sure tomorrow is going to be tiring. I think I should take a nap now or maybe I should read my book or revise some math? Nap sounds better than the rest. So yes time for powernap!

Sidetracked.
>> I can never get bored of Sophie Kinsella's THE SHOPAHOLIC series book.I read all of them for like the third time already.

>>I want to buy Sophie Kinsella's new book-The Twenties Girl.

>>I am currently reading For One more day by Mitch Albom. My mum gave me this book 3 years ago,but I wasn't really interested back then. And I just found it three days ago while I was cleaning my book shelf. It's a really good book :)

>>Is The lovely bones book better than the show? I am thinking of buying the book.

>>I am definitely going book-hunting with Iffah at Borders soon!!!!

2010-03-28T06:44:00.000-07:00

"Action may not always bring happiness, but there is no happiness without action"-Benjamin Disraeli

There is school tomorrow and I hope this coming week will be awesome.
I wish the I:AM mirror "reunion" fancy dinner is still on.
I feel like cooking instant noodles now,ok random.
Ok bye-x

2010-03-28T06:27:00.001-07:00

"Beauty is nothing without flaw"

I love the tie dye dress she's wearing!

So,I am planning to cut my hair like Agyness Deyn!
My guy friends think Its ugly because most of them don't like girls with short hair-.-
And well some of my girls think it wouldn't be nice on me,some of them thinks its too short. But my family on the other hand says that I can definitely pull it off! So..should I?

LOL THIS IS REALLY CUTE. she's so brave omg. How can someone not love her?
k bye-x

Keep up to the beat.

2010-03-28T05:53:00.000-07:00

"Dear Music,thanks for being there all the time. You have never let me down,you're truly a good frined"

Like Ikhsan said.."LIFE IS NOTHING WITHOUT MUSIC"
My favourite songs. Enjoy.

2010-03-26T22:11:00.000-07:00

Laptop battery is low and I am lazy to charge.
So I am going to go offline after I blog this.
I know what to wear to Brilliante but I dont know which ear stud to use.
My girlfriends are coming over after my religious class.
They are getting reading here!
Oh and I hope Brilliante is worth my 2bucks.
2bucks can my buy double cheeseburger ok!
Ok bye.

I miss Rachel,Amalina and all the other cast and crew.
Damn it.

I want my topshop vouchers. I want to shop.

2010-03-26T22:10:00.000-07:00

Once I had a love and it was a gas
Soon turned out had a heart of glass
Seemed like the real thing, only to find
Mucho mistrust, love's gone behind
Once I had a love and it was divine
Soon found out I was losing my mind
It seemed like the real thing but I was so blind
Mucho mistrust, love's gone behind

In between
What I find is pleasing and I'm feeling fine
Love is so confusing there's no peace of mind
If I fear I'm losing you it's just no good
You teasing like you do

Once I had a love and it was a gas
Soon turned out had a heart of glass
Seemed like the real thing, only to find
Mucho mistrust, love's gone behind

Once I had a love and it was divine
Soon found out I was losing my mind
It seemed like the real thing but I was so blind
Mucho mistrust, love's gone behind

Lost inside
Adorable illusion and I cannot hide
I'm the one you're using, please don't push me aside
We could've made it cruising, yeah

Yeah, riding high on love's true bluish light

Once I had a love and it was a gas
Soon turned out I had a heart of glass [radio version]
Soon turned out to be a pain in the ass [album version]
Seemed like the real thing only to find
Mucho mistrust, love's gone behind

2010-03-26T21:23:00.000-07:00

I want to buy a red nylon socks at a perfect length and I want it at the prettiest shade of red!
I am also looking for a pair pof black oxford flats,It is kind of hard to find the material I want and there was once when I saw the perfect one,there wasn't my size. Heart-pain. tsk.
Oh and not to forget Dr Martens boots,A perfect white drape top,cardigans,flowy black skirt,striped tunic,sweat shirts and moreeeeeeeee.

Shopping soon at 313,Hajj Lane,Holland V and anywhere at town :)

2010-03-26T08:35:00.000-07:00

LOLOLOLOLOL

Me: *pull LJS string(the bell thingy)*
Indah: OMGGGG 0.0
Me: *realize that the string broke because I pulled it too hard.
Indah: LOLOLOL *laughed for like 5 minutes*
Me: OMG *RUN*
Customers at LJS: AIYOOOOOHHHH

HAHAHAHHA DAMN IT! That was hilarious but embarrassing!
I wanted to say Sorry to the manager but then I ran out laughing like hell already!
HAHAHAHAHA OMGGGGGG Am I like in deep shit or something?

Blow my mind

2010-03-26T07:17:00.000-07:00

I watched The Lovely Bones at Atiqa's house just now.
Overall,it is one of the best movies I have watched so far :)
So,I am left with Dear John,Letters from Juliet and Alice in Wonderland!
Will definitely watch it soon,maybe with Kak La?
I am feeling nauseous right now. Damn it,I want to puke.
Maybe I should gag! heheheheh *gags*
Lol okay no I shall not hurt myself.
**(lol I:AM FAT script sia) HAHAHAHAHAHA

Okay bye.
Got brilliante tomorrow,what to wear? ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh damn it

2010-03-26T07:09:00.000-07:00

I know I played you out,but you gotta realize that this is reality.
And things like these happens all the time,you just gotta be strong.

thats what you get when you let your heart win

2010-03-25T01:24:00.001-07:00

Thank god,today is better than yesterday.

lost for words.

2010-03-24T06:39:00.000-07:00

School was..hmmm okay I guess.
I didn't pay attention during Chem because I was just stoning around and thinking about a few stuffs. I have too much on my mind lately.
So,I was quiet most of the time and I wasn't being myself.Maybe I am just too tired,I think an alien sucked up my energy when I was sleeping last night. Whatever it is,i need to be strong right now. I have to be strong. I will be strong.

I love rainy days,don't you? (24/3)

This way,it won't hurt so much when we say goodbye.

2010-03-24T06:13:00.000-07:00

Was it easier to forgive than it was to hate?
Or maybe it wasn't about forgiving or hating?
Maybe it was about acceptance.
About..accepting things you couldn't control.
(24/3)

Without rain,there is no rainbows.

2010-03-24T06:03:00.000-07:00

"You can't let the bad things get to you.Bad things must happen to you in life because these bad things will teach you how to appreciate all the good things"

(24/3)

"Life is like an onion: You peel it off one layer at a time, and sometimes you weep"-Carl Sandberg

2010-03-23T07:05:00.000-07:00

I have been pretty quiet lately.
Well yeah I don't really talk much now,because I have a lot of things on my mind.
Well I think too much sometimes.
No,I think too much about something in particular.
Something that I want,I need,I love.
I am trying to put IT at the back of my head.
But well,Its kind of hard.
Damn it,i really want someone to hug me really really tight right now.
Someone or anyone that can make me feel secure.
(23/3)

Distant.

2010-03-20T07:57:00.000-07:00

I am so worn out.

I have been so irritated easily that swear alot nowadays so yes I am sorry if I might hurt your feelings.

And i feel bad right now.

Because I am ignoring Isa like how Aikel is ignoring me.

Isa is irritating like fcuk nowadays. Text me and get mad when i don't reply his texts messages because i am busy-.- eeuw,he is younger than me for god sake.

I think Aikel feels irritated like the same way too. Maybe.

urgh okay whateverrrrrrrr soufi,stopppppppp ittttt ok.

I am just toooooooo tireddddddddd.

And I hope Aikel and I will still teach the kiddo's at Yuneng with me eventhough we are not in talking terms. I am still going to teach them eventhough Aikel isn't even talking to me. And I will makesure he will teach them too. We can't be selfish to those kiddos ok Aikel. Eventhough we are not in talking terms,we still have responsibilities to do together.

So we will put our ego away,and just be kind to them. Its okay if you still refuse to talk to me while teaching them. As long as you finish your duty as a teacher then you are freee from me k? So yeah..enough said. FML

WALL I:AM

2010-03-20T07:24:00.000-07:00

I think all of us including Daen and the band did well on that day :)

So cheers!

And I will definitely miss you Rachel,Amalina,Aqilah,Nisa,Yenny and also the production team Belle,Amaliah,Ili and Karen! And not forgetting our oh so fierce director Daen A.Ali.

Special thanks to my family and friends who came to support me.

And thank you everyone else who texted saying break leg!

I am so tired right now,so I will do a proper update soon k?

And I will pos more pictures soon tooo!

P/s; Sorry if I didn't really talk much or like response to you guys on the 18th of march,i had alot of things on my mind and I was just too tired.

Pp/s; I am going to cut my fringe tomorrowwwwwwwwww..like finally!!!!!

Alright thats all,goodnight.

Hatred

2010-03-16T19:13:00.000-07:00

Why are you still not talking to me?
Whatever it is,I am truly sorry for whatever I've done.
I am a human,and I have feelings too.
I gave you enough space already.
So whats the problem now?

"Sometimes, being a bitch is all a woman’s got to hold on to."
— Stephen King (via quote-book) (via p-aperplane)

I know i am bitchy,but hey isn't it normal?

"Minds are like parachutes. They only function when they are open."-Sir James Dewar

2010-03-16T18:56:00.000-07:00

I went shopping with Amalina yesterday :)
It was awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
How can I not love Amalina?
I finally bought my harem pants,i wanted plain black but I bought the one with like prints on it!
I can't wait to wear it out again,so comfortable!
I bought a plain black tee,white spaghetti strap tanktop and a white tanktop with a tiny pocket and a rectangle on it.Wanted to shop at forever 21 but ended up buying nothing there! Hahaha.
I have poetry rehearsal later on,and then after that I have I:AM full dress rehearsal!
Today's I:AM rehearsal will be intenseeeeeee,so wish me luck!
I CAN'T BELIEVE I:AM MIRROR SHOW IS THIS THURSDAY. WISH ME LUCK.
I HOPE I DON'T SCREW UPPPPPP

AND OMG MY POETRY COMPETITION IS THIS SATURDAYYYYYY
OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

You wish fire, would die and turn colder. You wish your love could see you grow older.

2010-03-15T22:04:00.000-07:00

15 little things that makes me smile.

1)Hugs.(especially when someone hug me from behind! awwww)

2)The sound of the rain.

3)Flowers.

4)Swans.

5)Kisses.

6)When babies laugh.(so cute!)

7)Newborn kittycats.

8)Sunshine.

9)Sugar.

10)Pure white during winter(eventhough we don't have winter here,but I just love looking at pictures of white beauty of winter morning)

11)Hot showers.

12)Butterflies.

13)A peaceful melody.

14)Strawberries.

15)And lastly,knowing the fact that i'm happy makes me smile alot :)

Jonsi,ég elska þig

2010-03-15T21:57:00.000-07:00

I want to be a lilikoi, Boy Lilikoi
You grind your claws, you howl, you growl unafraid of Hoi Polloi
You run, you're free, you climb endless trees - You reignite
You growl, you howl, you show your teeth
You bite, it's alright

Just say no more, use your eyes, the world goes and flutters by
Use your eyes, you'll know you are
Use your eyes, the world goes and flutters by
Use your eyes, you'll know you are

Wild be my boy, you burn so bright, till you illuminate
One day you're out, you give up the fight, you slow down heart-rate

We all grow old, use your life, the world goes and flutters by
Use your life, you'll know you are
Use your life, the world goes and flutters by
Use your life, you'll know you are

Electricity wires are down, rainbow colours fade into brown
I dreamt your smile was shifting for good
Courageous boy, now you are gone

And run faster, yet have no place to go
Your spirit still burns, and so life goes on
You are....... (Alive)
You are....... (Alive)

I want to be a lilikoi, boy, you...
You grind your claws, you howl, you growl, unafraid of Hoi Polloi

Electricity wires are down, rainbow colours fade into brown
I dreamt your smile was shifting for good
Courageous boy, now you are gone
You run faster, yet have no place to go
Your spirit still burns, and so life goes on
You are....... (Alive)
You are....... (Alive)

Oh Jonsi,i don't care if you're openly gay.
ég elska þig Jónsi Birgisson♥
That is I love you Jónsi Birgisson in icelandic.

must watch

2010-03-14T07:56:00.000-07:00

I don't understand what this show is about.

I have to watch thissssss!!! Oh my robbert is a bad boy here..grrrr!

And thissss!!!

Public display of affection

2010-03-14T07:09:00.000-07:00

So life has been shitty,and I am just hoping that tomorrow will always be a better day.
I don't know whats up with me lately. I am so sensitive,and I swear a lot.
And I get irritated with couples a lot nowadays.
I find couples so sweet in movies, but sometimes in real life I find them disgusting.
You know sometimes,i just feel like saying "get a room already" to strangers who make out infront of me etc etc. It is just so gross! When I say this to my friends or family,they will say I am jealous la whatever shit. I am not jealous,but sometimes you're just really gross.
All this give me goosebumps.

p/s; this post is not to anyone in particular. This is generally speaking.

Inner bitch

2010-03-14T06:56:00.000-07:00

Every now and then without warning,I can be really mean towards you.
So if you can't handle me when I am at my shittiest,then that is your problem.
Because I don't care.

comeon,gimme a break

2010-03-14T06:23:00.000-07:00

I am busy almost everyday. I won't be resting/shopping during March holidays because I have I:AM festival rehearsal and poetry competition rehersal!
I:AM festival is this thursday,18th of march! And the NUS malay poetry competition is on the 20th of march,which is this saturday. How can I not be nervous? I am afraid I might screw up or end up falling sick,because right now I am like almost falling sick.
The weather is terribly hot so note to self: DRINK LOTS OF WATER HOKAIIIII

nights full of pain

2010-03-10T04:55:00.000-08:00

STOP ACTING AS IF YOU'RE MAD AT ME. IF YOU ARE MAD AT ME,THERE IS NO NEED TO THROW TANTRUM. JUST SAY IT IN MY FACE LA

Too jaded to fall in love.

2010-03-08T04:52:00.000-08:00

I screwed up.
I did badly for my geography and chemistry test.
Urgh,2010 is really not my year.
I just hope I will still be one of the top 10 students in my class.
And hopefully,I will be a model student D:

I am so worn out.
March is a pretty hectic month.
I have alot of things going on after school. Rehearsals,Cheerleading,Extra class etc etc.
So so so tired.
And I am deprived of sleep..I have eyebags,darkcircles,a pimple on my nose and ulcer on my lower lip.
Urgh screw all this. Screw life.
FML

Monday Blues

2010-03-08T04:44:00.000-08:00

Only god knows how fucked up today is.
So Aikel is currently giving me a cold shoulder.
He called me a spoilt brat..he said i didn't know how to do any housework.
He said that people's first impression on me is a bitch/bimbo.
He really hurt my feelings when he said that.
I know it was my fault,because I did something that made him mad before that.
But well,I said sorry and instead of forgiving me,he told me that I am irritating.
So,I am currently pissed off with the fact that he didn't accept my apology.
And he is ignoring all my text messages.
To hell with all this. I know I said sorry and I mean it.
So yes its up to him,to forgive me or not.
But I am also expecting an apology because he hurt my feelings when he said all that.
Sigh.
I bet Aikel thinks I am nothing more than a bimbo.
Great.

2010-03-07T05:21:00.001-08:00

ALMOST EVERYONE IS LIKE AT PARAMORE'S CONCERT. AND HERE I AM COOKING INSTANT NOODLES AT HOME. FML!

There will be school tomorrow,I am so tired.
I am busy every single day. So so tired.
I need sleep. My bed looks so good nowadays.
:(

United back

2010-03-06T02:50:00.000-08:00

I sent my dearest Kakla to the airport early in the morning just now.
Alhamdulillah she has reached Perth safely.
Will miss her. She won't be able to make it to my sports day :(
But Abang Shahid might be coming so yeay!!

Peace out everyone.(I know this picture is so funny,it annoys me sometime)
But well *peace out

2010-03-04T05:46:00.000-08:00

You know sometimes when you're just too stressed out,you just want to eat and eat to make yourself feel better. But in the end you feel even worse because eating alot is like sinful because it makes you feel fat :(

But you know what? At this moment,I don't really care if I am going to be fat.
I just want to stuff all these in my mouth and satisy myself!

Oh my kinder bueno egg surprise and the two bar kinder bueno sure looks good!

And Kit Kat too! Kit Kat chunky is like one of my favourite chocolates.

Dove Amicelli is one of my favourite chocolates too.

Strawberries with whip cream looks so good!

Ben & Jerry's cookies and cream with waffle cone is so delcious too.

Oh and the most delicious waffle with ice cream i've ever tasted before is the one at Andersens.

Yumm yumm yumm,I can imagine the waffle and the maple syrup melting in my mouth,uh huh that is so nyaman. Oh yes that is so so so nyaman.

And not to forget Pepperoni pizza with lots and lots of cheese and tomato!

Oh my god,I really want to eat alot right now.

I usually crave/eat alot when I am totally stressed out.
:(

apparently, I am affected.

2010-03-04T05:29:00.001-08:00

"Oh it tears me up.I try to hold on, but it hurts too much"

I don't want to go to school tomorrow.
I am just too sad.
I just hope everything is okay.
Because both of you mean alot to me.
And it hurts just too much.
Too much :(

2010-02-28T04:30:00.000-08:00

Red Chanel flap bag :)

Red TOD'S handbag :)

As you know one of my favourite colour is Red.
And I am thinking of getting a red bag because they look good especially when you're wearing dull coloured outfit. And i bet the red bag would really stand out!
I can't wait to go shopping pretty soon!
Hunting for a white maxi dress and a really really comfortable pumps.
And also a lace dress! The one like studiofrost's signature dress. HAHHA
okay bye. theres school tomorrow. schoool is fucked up.

Bye.

Is it too late to remind you how we were dear?

2010-02-27T21:40:00.000-08:00

I am in the lounge room now next to my balcony and I love how the wind is blowing through my hair.I am listening to some good music..and I am recalling the wonderful memories of my past,and I feel like reliving those days when everyone was carefree.

Oh good times♥

I:AM

2010-02-26T21:46:00.000-08:00

I have religious class later on. Can't wait to meet Mia and ze twins!(L)
After religious class I will be heading to my aunt's new condo! :)
Daddy will be fetching me and my sister.
So,Yesterday's rehearsal was awesome!
But Kakla and Abang boboi wasn't there :(
They had some errands to run!
Had dinner at Jilani's and then went home by train with Rachel and Amalina.
Both of them are awesomeeeeeeee!
And my next rehearsal would be next Wednesday i think.
And I hope it would be even better.
Oh and I have 10 tickets to sell for the I:AM festival(the one I am acting).
$12 for concession and $17 for adults.
Text or email me if you guys want to buy the tickets from me.
Email me at soufi.aaliyah@gmail.com

*peace out

2010-02-26T20:40:00.000-08:00

"It hurts, but I never show this pain youll never know If only you could see just how lonely and how cold"

I hate life.
School,friends and love is all fucked up.
Well I am too jaded to entertain all these shits.
Too jaded to fight. Too jaded to fall in love.
Life is such a bitch. I am trying my best not to care much about this.
But then it is just too hard. Hard enough it gives me heartaches :(
I am just fucked up. Screw life already :(
And yes like the phrase I quoted above. I never do share my pain to my friends.
I wish I could,but no it would be too dramatic. Way too dramatic.

I am wondering who the hell SHE is talking about at her blog.
I just hope it isn't me because I have never ever hated her..and I hope she is fine :(

Ignorance is my new bestfriend!

2010-02-24T04:50:00.000-08:00

Oh Miranda Kerr, You are so gorgeous.
I want to be just like you :)

Bleargh,I feel fat!!
I have been eating lots and lots of junk food.
Kill me already :(( I really have to go to gym and yoga often.
I have to persuade my mom to allow me to be a member in True Yoga and True Fitness.
I am sick and tired of using my v.i.p pink slip to go in! I want a membership card.
I want to lose weight,I NEED to lose weight.
I HAVE TO LOSE WEIGHT.
If only,weight isn't a big issue :((

Anyway,Monday's rehearsal was intense.
I can't seem to focus whenever I act. I need to practice hell lot!
The I:AM festival is like less than a month.
And I am really really nervous already.
I really hope I act well on that day because I know I can do it.
I know I can act well,because I am going to act well.
I AM!!!!! okay that is the spirit.
Okay,What the hell am I bullshitting right now?

Alright,lets talk about school. Urgh school!
School is such a bore. I dread going to school nowadays.
I head home straight after school nowadays because i want to study,finish up my homework,bathe,eat and rest at home. I feel like a total angel going home early,finishing my school work and studying :)

(Sidetrack)
I am sick and tired of everyone trying to find fault with one another. Sometimes,I just feel like just shouting Shut the fuck up right in front of their face and shove _!_ this up their ass! Kids in school are childish,even the sec fours.
How immature bah? But being me,the one who doesn't have time to entertain all this childish shits ignores them. Thank god there is such a blissful thing called ignorance♥

I have been really really patient with everyone and their shits.
Because I am trying to show everyone that I can handle them even at their worst.
I believe that in life if someone were to do something really bad to you in life,they would be punished even worse in hell! So yes,if you like being tortured in hell later on,you guys can keep on treating me like shit :) Have fun all sadist people who likes seeing people suffer by treating them like dirt. Muahahahahahhaha okay i sound like a crazy bitch!

Ok Bai.

2010-02-21T05:24:00.000-08:00

I really want to kiss kakla right now!
Miss her already..I want to swing her around while carrying her!
You're not fat..and even if you are fat I still love you.
So don't emo emo okay. See you tomorrow.
And make sure you smile widely eventhough your boboi won't be there!
I am hereeeee to make you smileeee okay :D

To Ira,who have been missing in action due to heartbreaks.
If you are reading this,i really really miss you.
Eventhough,you can get really annoying when you're moody and throw tantrums but I still love you.
And I hate seeing you suffer.
And to Atiqa,who is deeply in loveeeeeeee!
Hahahah I love you more than you love me okay! (L)
Dont get mad easily,nanti cepat tua. HAHAHAH wtf

And to boboi yang handsome ini.
I am so sad that you won't be there tomorrow.
Im not just sad because I miss you,its also because I want to PINCH you back!
muahahahahahahaha! *evil laughs*
If you're reading this,tell Zaini I said Happy Birthday!
Andddddd seee youu soooooon brothaaaaaaaa
I can't wait to pinch you!

Alright i want to sleep.
Goodnight.

So what if I don't need one.

2010-02-21T04:06:00.000-08:00

I want one :(((((

IMMA THUG

2010-02-20T18:19:00.000-08:00

For the first time,miss reddy isn't bugging me at all.
I am in a really good mood right now.
Singing like a crazy bitch.I am right now rapping like a crazy bitch.
All these hip hop or r&b shits. Lol so not me to listen to this kind of songs but i am having fun rapping! I am so gangsta,whaddup ya'll?
Okay enough bullshitting. Bye.

Forever 21

2010-02-20T06:18:00.000-08:00

I know this is like my 3rd or 4th post.

How lame,but nyahaha I am just so bored right now.

And I am thinking of something pretty comfortable for my rehearsal on Monday.

Hmmmmmmm *searching for clothes in closet*

Okay,i have to open my eyes widely and look for an outfit to wear!

Goodnight readers-x

"life is boring without music"

2010-02-20T05:25:00.001-08:00

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And I am addicted to all this songs :))

I have tuition tomorrow,can't wait to study hard and heart with Atiqa.
And can't wait to cuddle wuddle baby Hanna.

2010-02-20T03:53:00.000-08:00

Thank god it rained just now.
I just can't stand the weather nowadays!
Its like a hot towel is perpetually slapping me everywhere.
I love the sun,but sometimes too much sun is hell.
I would love to go for a swim tomorrow,but miss reddy is visiting and I feel uncomfortable swimming with miss bloody reddy! Miss reddy is troublesome.
Who says girls have good life? *rolleyes*

So you know everytime miss reddy visit me,I will get hungry and thirsty easily and will always think of food! And you know what I really really want to eat right now? Pepperoni pizza!

Oh my god,that looks so mouth watering.
*ahhhhhh*

And you know whenever miss reddy visit,you always want to wear comfortable pants.

By comfortable i mean it allows air to your "front door".

And I think a leopard print harem pants with chiffon-like material would be heaven.

Doesnt it look pretty? and I bet I would feel so comfortable in them too.

And lastly,this has nothing got to do with Miss reddy but I WOULD LOVE TO BUY THAT OWL RING I SAW AT FOREVER 21. LOVE LOVE LOVE IT!!!!

Okay bye-x

2010-02-19T20:51:00.000-08:00

I am seeking high and low for a perfect white maxi dress for my play on the 18th of March.
I am also looking for white gladiators(i gave my old one to Ira,and it is freaking dirty already)
And I want a LV speedy bag from Paris! Muaahahahahah can't wait to get my hands on all these things! :))))
Went jogging just now,and I feel good(L)
I LOVE IFFAH SYAHIRAH!! yeay.
Quality time with her is ze best!
Alright I want to eat now,starving!

A lonely Sky..

2010-02-18T04:31:00.000-08:00

Its freaking friday tomorrow! Which means school is going to end early!

And I am going to meet Abang Shahid and Naurah tomorrow.

Too bad Kakla couldn't make it,she's having her venue management :(

But well,she is OLD now and she has things to do! What a busy woman :)

Bah I am really really craving for tong seng's dry fishball noodle with crispy wanton.

Nyamaaaaaan! And I think I am gaining weight,the last time I weigh myself was like during the first week of january! And my weight was freaking 41kg. So fat already(not reverse psychology eh) To me above 40kg is fat. And I don't care,I AM GOING TO WORKOUT SOON BECAUSE I HAVE TO LOSE WEIGHT.

I have been eating teriyaki chicken rice with chciken drumlet almost everyday in school without fail! Omgggggg thats baaad! I have to go on a f*cking diet!!!!!! damn it.

And my phone is ringing,OH IT'S IFFAH :)

alright,want to talk my best best best friend!! IFFAH (L)

LESBIANS

2010-02-18T04:24:00.001-08:00

Mom: I read your blog a few days ago. And I saw a picture of you kissing kakla.

Me: Then?

Mom: Kiss kakla?Lesbians are not encouraged in our religion.

Brother: Hahahaha lesbians? NO LAH THEY ARE NOT! HAHAHAHA

Me: *HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA* I AM NOT LESBIAN MAK

Omg my mum is so cute.
I mean Kakla is like my freaking cousin and she's a female. And I am straight,so seriously WTFFFF
HAHAHAHAHAHA

I quit, and I mean it.

2010-02-18T02:54:00.000-08:00

I came home early today.
Had maths remedial and then chilled at school with ze girls.
After that I went home straight.
Some of my friends are still upset with me.
But its okay,what is life without all this shits right?

Who says a girl is weak without a man?
Well you got it wrong.
I am single for a year plus and I'm still strong without me man!
Muahahah so proud of myself,and ofcourse to all the single ladies :)

P/s; "Books before boys" Hell yeah.

Guilt

2010-02-17T05:48:00.000-08:00

Right now,I am in the verge of breaking down.
A lot of people are upset with me :(
At times like these,I wish I'd never been born at all.
I just want to say that I am sorry..really really sorry.

fatigue

2010-02-16T04:26:00.000-08:00

Hi.

I had rehearsals at 10am today and I woke up at 7am looking like(e_e)
Rehearsals was okay,we went to chapter 6 studio to like practice with this awesomeeeee band called "Paris in the Making"! To me,they are like Singapore's version of Sigur Ros! cooooool right Ayeshaaaa?

So,as you know today is a hot day and me being bimbotic as ever,wore my gap long sleeve top! I sweated like hell walking under the hot hot sun. Bah I am worn out and I feel like skipping school tomorrow. But I know that my mum wouldn't allow me to do so! But luckily tomorrow is Wednesday which means there is art club and therefore I get to spend some quality time with Indah,Ira and Delance (L) Eventhough Delance is still being a bitch towards me, I still love him k! SO DELANCE,IF YOURE READING THIS. STOP BEING MEAN ASSSSS.

P/s; I am craving for jellybeans even though I ate them on saturday :(
Me didn't get to eat me jellybeans today :(( me wanna cry! Craving for it ya knowwww

Okay bye. The bed looks so good right now! I want sleeeep

2010-02-14T23:38:00.000-08:00

Going to I:AM briefing tomorrow.
Meeting them there!! Yeay.
Had an awesome weekend.
Thank you!! LOVE YOUUUUUU

Valentines

2010-02-13T06:03:00.000-08:00

So right now I am at Kakla's crib :)
I am sleeping over! We're celebrating eve of cny & valentines day!
And yes finally,I found my valentines day date!
The love of my life,Nabila Hatim(kakla,DUH)
Haha so we dressed up,headed out feeling all pretty!
Now we're chilling infront of her macky drinking snapple and eating strawberries.
I am feeling dizzy right now and and kakla just massaged my forehead.
Feeling better right now! We webcamwhored and vidwhore and we're just plain whores! HAHAHAHA OKAY WTF
Okay go to go now,want to lovey dovey with her :) Vday mahhhhh must show extra kinky lovin!

fuckkk offffffffff brothaaaaas
i got me homegirl wimme

lots of love,xoxo Miss A
CURRENT MOOD:HYPERRRRR(omg so cliche)

2010-02-12T22:26:00.000-08:00

"I lay alone awake at night
Sorrow fills my eyes
But Im not strong enough to cry
Despite of my disguise
Im left with no shoulder
But everyone wants to lean on me.
I guess Im their soldier.
Well, whos gonna be mine"-Beyonce(Save the hero)

And I am in the verge of breaking down.
But my tears wont fall,whats wrong?

2010-02-12T21:21:00.000-08:00

LEATHERETTE DESERT BOOTS
i want this!!! If you guys want to buy go to http://snakesinaplane.livejournal.com
It is so freaking sexy righttttt bahhhhh IM BROKE

2010-02-12T21:01:00.000-08:00

Hi.

Did nothing productive at all today.
I want to rent a book at Siglap centre to keep me busy during the weekends.
Tomorrow is Valentines day and I am dateless. Well I don't really mind being alone during valentines day its just that I feel stupid right now.
Everyone is with their boyfriend hanging out and here I am at home.

I find it absurd how people only give presents to their love ones during Valentines day.
hahaha okay shut up I actually love valentines day but Im just jealous. K BAI fuck you ass

2010-02-12T19:52:00.000-08:00

Childish shits are happening again at school.
Why can't people just live in peace nowadays?
My sister don't even know you guys and you guys hate her.
Yeah she may look arrogant but so what?
Fuck off man everyone.

2010-02-12T06:44:00.000-08:00

I am in the verge of breaking down right now. And no one is here for me now :(

2010-02-12T06:27:00.000-08:00

I cried watching dear john's trailer.
So sad(i mean not die sad,like the sweet sad kinda thing la)

2010-02-11T05:23:00.000-08:00

Delance is being mean.
He thinks that both me and Indah are retards. And he thinks that I have bi-polar.
how sad :(

Aikel has been quiet in class.
And I feel sad looking at him that way,I hope he is fine :(

Indah and I have been really really crazy :))
I love hanging out with her after school!
I think we lose our sanity everytime we meet each other.
We think alike :) Hahaha

and the lower sec(s) are annoying. I know I am just sec three but seriously this lower sec sucks balls. Hahahaha both me and Indah hate CHEAPSKATES AND WANNABE LIKE THEM!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHA OMG IM SO MEAN
K FUCK BAI!

2010-02-10T06:19:00.001-08:00

school sucks!
Delance thinks that me and Indah are retards :((
Hahaha i love schoooool when there's them.
Without them,school will suck even more!

I know this is really random but I miss my braided hair.
Feel like braiding them again,or even better DREADLOCKS ;)
haha I bet I would look ugly in it! But in school its uncommon!
So I'll be like the most daring girl in school! Cooooool shit.
Hahahaha and I am thinking of cutting my hair really short like agyness deyn!(ahhh my fashion icon)

Okay i fucking dont know what to talk about here.
Life sucks.
GROW UP PEOPLE hahahahhahahahahaha omg so mean

LOSER

2010-02-08T05:32:00.000-08:00

Today is one of those days you feel useless.
I am so pissed,and I have been swearing alot.
And Aikel is trying to calm me down. (baik pe)

AND BLOODYHELLLLLLL FUCK EVERYONE MAN

2010-02-07T00:35:00.000-08:00

wanted to talk to kakla and she went offline.
GREAT.

2010-02-06T22:27:00.000-08:00

b
Since I was mad bored,I drew that(Refer to picture above)
I am thinking of framing it once my dad paint my room
I want my dad to paint my room gray!
And then I will frame all my black and white artworks,pictures of me and Shadelle,me and my schoolmates etc etc. And hang them on the wall! That will definitely look cool.
But the thing is,I share my room with my small sister,so I have talk to her about this. I have to persuade her!! I hope she love the idea too! *cross fingers*
And I also have to persuade my mom to look for a new canopy! Hehehehe maybe a white and silver canopy! Bahhhhhhhh I have to revamp my room soon!

P/s; I don't know whats wrong with this layout..the fonts are hard to read if I don't change it to "TIMES" and NO capital letters. Crap right. But nevermind,will blogskin hunt soon! Muahahaha

Silhouette.

2010-02-06T08:26:00.000-08:00

Hi.
I am actually lazy to blog about Cycling,Fetching them(Indah and Delance) from camp,Kakla's birthday etc etc.
But Since I am bored. Why not right?

So, on Thursday I was bored so I thought of meeting Kakla at town after school since there's no school on Friday. But instead,she wanted to go hiking.
So I rushed to Eunos MRT to meet her because the hiking bridge at MacRitchie closes at 4.55pm. And I reached eunos at 3.30pm. So we thought of cabbing..but by the time we reach there it will be 4plus and you don't expect us to hike for 30minutes plus only right? So we give it a miss. Instead we went cycling at Pasir Ris Park because Kakla hasn't cycled for around more than 3years! It's because she prefers roller-blading rather than cycling. So on that day, we wore like really sporty nike tanktops with shorts and sports shoes so that we won't look like typical minah's who cycle with slippers(hahahahahah) We had fun cycling while singing like hell.
And I can't stop laughing at Kakla because she is so slow! We took quite a few pictures and videos but too bad they're not with me! Will upload it once kakla send me the pictures! And and Kakla if you're reading this,we will go cycling again soon okay baby!

As for Friday we had some fucktard elearning shit. After that,went out with Atiqa to buy some stuffs at Bugis. Then we took a bus to our tuition place. After tuition,met Ikhsan,Azhar and Tamimi ;) Had our dinner at bedok..then we fetched Indah and Delance! Oh my god I swear I was so excited to see them after 2 torturous days without them! Hugged both of them tightly. Our plan was to chill with them but then I had to left early as I have to prepare for Kakla's midnight birthday celebration at my crib! Kakla and Abang Shahid reached my crib around almost midnight. Cake cutting,Picture taking,Video Taping etc etc. After all that we decided to hangout at the 24hour Macdonalds nearby my house with my brother and our neighbour. I became Shadelle's photographer that night! Hahah how cute :)
After eating,taking pictures,talking,laughing and enjoying each other presence. We walked around aimlessly and then went home to change into our PJs then send abang shahid until the void deck because he is cabbing home as the time was 4am plus.
Slept around 5am and wokeup really late! Hahahah! I had lotsa fun eventhough Kakla was whiny because she had a birthday pimple and a birthday bump! hahahaha so cute.

AND YES HAPPY BIRTHDAY NABILA HATIM! I LOVE YOU VERY VERY MUCH!

Hmmmm Okay I know this post is long and I know no one except for Kakla will read every single word I type out. So yeah I better stop blogging because long blog posts are boring..ESPECIALLY MINE RIGHT?

Bah okay goodnight everyone. My bed is calling me already.

Oh and I love this song!

Enjoy everyone :)

2010-02-06T04:38:00.000-08:00

"So what if it hurts me?
So what if i break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause i'm just trying to be happy"

Thanks everyone for making me smile alot these days.
Yes,I am happy :))

2010-02-05T06:47:00.000-08:00

(click picture to enlarge)
So I was chatting with Aikel and we were talking about relationships etc etc.
And he pledged " I MUHAMMED AIKEL BIN ARIS PROMISE NOT TO BE IN RELATIONSHIP UNTIL MY BEST FRIEND AALIYAH HAS A BOYFRIEND"
Haha isn't he cute like that?
OMG Aunty Rah's tarot card says that I will have a boyfriend this year. Which means YOU,AIKEL BIN ARIS will have a girlfriend this year!
MUAHAHAH Okay haha I don't think I will have a boyfriend okay.
The thought of it creeps me out! Hahaha!

And the skanky lovebirds!
I can't wait for them to reach here :)
Can't wait to laugh all night and take pictures until Abang Shahid's camera battery low!
Bah I hope they are like on their way here already!!
Love love love them :))))

I AM ADDICTED TO THIS SONG :)
Love love love beyonce!

2010-02-05T06:30:00.000-08:00

Is there such thing as pre-menses cramps?
Because I might be getting it tomorrow or tonight and I am having cramps which hurts like @!&**&#%!%(^!#!@ABKJDKHWkabxbjvsaauwo

heart

2010-02-05T06:20:00.000-08:00

I know this may sound really really pathetic.
But I kinda miss falling in love :((

2010-02-04T20:16:00.001-08:00

I can't find my two tone forever 21 wayferers anywhere! :(((
so sad.

Sick.

2010-02-01T20:38:00.000-08:00

I have been drinking strawberry milk while listening to my favourite song!

Am cold so I used the skanky lovebirds shawl to make me happy!

My eyes looks so red and druggy..so i decided to wear shades for this photo.
Hahaha pathetic much!

I love the peaceful atmosphere when no one is at home.
I mean my maid is at home but yeah she isn't noisy :)
I am starving and my maid is cooking for me my favourite dish,Blackpepper beef ;)
And I can't wait for school to freaking end because I feel so bored at home and my friends might hangout at my house later after school. Yeayers! Love love love today!

Anyway,we are going to celebrate Kakla's birthday this friday night at my crib!
Yeayers abang shahid will be there too!! Can't wait to have some fun! Muahahaha.
I am a happy girl today :D

Bye!

2010-02-01T19:26:00.000-08:00

I love her boots,jeans and bag!
bah i want to go shopping soon!
Haven't shop at all you know this year :(((((
SO SADDDDDDDD LAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

brighter than sunshine.

2010-02-01T19:05:00.000-08:00

Am resting at home today because I am sick.
Thanks everyone for the "Get Well Soon" wishes.
I love you guys!

Mystery Jets-Flakes

2010-02-01T19:03:00.001-08:00

Addicted to this song!

Aqualung

2010-02-01T18:55:00.000-08:00

I never understood before.
I never knew what love was for.
My heart was broke, my head was sore -
What a feeling.

Tied up in ancient history,
I didnt believe in destiny.
I look up, you're standing next to me -
What a feeling.

What a feeling in my soul -
Love burns brighter than sunshine,
Brighter than sunshine.
Let the rain fall, I don't care.
I'm yours, and suddenly you're mine.
Suddenly, you're mine;
And it's brighter than sunshine.

I never saw it happening.
I'd given up and given in.
I just couldn't take the hurt again -
What a feeling.

I didn't have the strength to fight.
Suddenly, you seemed so right.
Me and you -
What a feeling.

What a feeling in my soul -
Love burns brighter than sunshine.
It's brighter than sunshine.
Let the rain fall, I don't care.
I'm yours, and suddenly you're mine.
Suddenly, you're mine.

And it's brighter than the sun.
It's brighter than the sun.
It's brighter than the sun, sunshine.

Love will remain a mystery,
But give me your hand, and you will see.
Your heart is keeping time with me.

What a feeling in my soul -
Love burns brighter than sunshine.
It's brighter than sunshine.
Let the rain fall, I don't care.
I'm yours, and suddenly you're mine.
Suddenly, you're mine.

I got a feeling in my soul.
Love burns brighter than sunshine,
Brighter than sunshine.
Let the rain fall, I don't care.
I'm yours, and suddenly you're mine.
Suddenly, you're mine.

I got a feeling in my soul.
Love burns brighter than sunshine.
It's brighter than sunshine.
Let the rain fall, I don't care.
I'm yours, and suddenly you're mine.
Suddenly, you're mine.
And it's brighter than sunshine.